I have a confession to make....I'm not very good at this blogging business. I find it hard to choose the words to write and the time to put it up. Now that it's been 2 months since my last post I figure I should change that. So here it is. I had a Christmas blog written but never posted because I didnt find time to go on an actual computer to adjust the font.(iPad won't let me) This time I shall just post and not care about the font.
Here is what is on my heart: I'm thinking the new year is about to approach. I'm thinking about how I have heard that missionaries take a year to raise their budget and frankly I don't want to wait that long. I want my faith to grow. I want to leave for the philippines so badly in July or August. That is so close when you consider the amount I have to raise. If you ask me in person I'd be glad to discuss it with you. I just am going to choose to not post it on here. I've thought much on how I will raise my budget. Nothing seems like a 1+1=2 method. I don't find myself the bold type to ask for money. I don't find myself the successful type with the best paying job as I would probably keep my current job if they told me tomorrow it had to be a volunteer position now instead of a salary one. I love beng a preschool teacher and feelng like I am helping mold these kids at their prime years....even if they won't remember me. I think about the missionaries I have seen at my church and seen how the Lord has blessed them when they have been humble. At the same time I know I must ask. But how? My heart is so not wanting to offend anyone by asking for support. I want to spare them the shame if they can't or decide they would rather not. This is where I need more faith!!! I'm praying for an increase of that this year. I feel the pressure of the question of how is your goal of budget raising going? At the same time I feel no pressure because it's all in God's timing. It's different than a summer missions trip with a deadline. I know the Lord will provide. I have wanted to wait until after the holidays to really ask for the much needed support. I know that Christmas brings more stress than needed. I don't desire to be associated with that. I would love to be associated with the real meaning: Christ but it seems that since we are human we often forget and get caught up in the spending and silly traditions. So I wait for it to pass and pray that the Lord will stir hearts to remember what it's all about. Now that we face a new year we can realize what it's about and exam our lives to see what more we can do to make a difference this year. That is what I do. Right now I'm being stirred to remember my calling and having faith to be bold and yet walk in humility to ask for provision to get back to these beloved kids that I would adopt all myself if I could.
So please pray with me. What is it that you need to do this year? Pray that I get provision and my budget will be met for me to go when God wills. Pray if you should support me monthly(needed most). Pray that these kids in the Kings Garden Childrens Home will know how much God loves them.
Thanks for reading this and for your prayers:)
Ames trying to keep on the way.
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